People think I'm crazy or confused when I tell them I no longer watch TV and that I have deleted all of my accounts such as Hulu & Netflix. But my relationship with Jesus Christ is so much more important. I don't want it to be said that I gave more time to entertainment than I did to Jesus and my family. It has been a great experience and awakening for me and I am loving it. My mind doesn't feel cluttered it feels free.
Scriptures such as 1 Thessalonians 5:22; Abstain from all appearance of evil, Psalm 101:2-3; ...I will walk within my house with a perfect (blameless) heart. I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes... Ephesians 4:27; Neither give place to the devil, and Psalm 34:14; Depart from evil, and do good... Have given me such great convictions that I have typed them out and hung them on the walls of my home as a constant reminder.
Some may look at these and say, "this is not what the word means" or "television isn't evil it's what you do with it". To that, I will have to say like Paul: "all things are lawful but all things are not expedient, but I will not be brought under the power (bondage) of any". As Christ deals with us as individuals our convictions are our own. One must not allow these convictions to be compromised, but know and understand who Christ is to them. As well as what His purpose is for one's life.
I lost one of my grandsons when he was eight months old and recently lost an uncle to a very tragic event. Both of these outcomes made me question myself. And I found myself asking: "what had my attention and my focus so much that I missed the need to pray and stand in the gap?" What captivated my mind and spirit that I wasn't aware of a need?
This pushed my desire to draw as close to Jesus Christ as I can. Realizing that I am imperfect and if I take my focus off of Him even for a second, someone's soul could be lost because of my carelessness and selfishness. I have determined that I never want to feel this way again. It took me back to when I first received Christ and how I would spend countless hours studying God's word and writing everything He gave me. I would spend so many hours giving Him my time, that my family would become angry because nothing in the house got done. (I had to learn the balance in this as well and understand that ministering to my family, meant I was ministering to Christ.)
Somewhere in my life this began to shift. I could blame it on church hurt, I could blame it on my children's rebellion, but the bottom line is; the only one I can point a finger at is myself for being blinded by the cares of life. I have determined within myself, that before 2018 comes to an end, I will have a complete renewal of my passion and desire for all of God's will to be done in me and through me. For all that I am and all that I desire to be is found only in Him. He is my everything.
I never want to feel the sting of knowing that someone's life or death, whether it be spiritual or natural, is within my dedication to prayer and I failed. This is a sting that is too much to bare. I am thankful that I have found grace, favor, and forgiveness in Christ Jesus. I am thankful that I have allowed Him to fully instruct me and then become obedient without compromise to those instructions.
The word of God stands true when it says, "they that hunger and thirst after righteousness shall be filled". I want to always hunger, and always thirst for my Saviour. For it is in Him that I live, move, and have my being. This may not be another's conviction but it is mine and I will fulfill it without compromise. My mind is clear and uncluttered, my focus has returned, and my love for the ministry has increased. May someone else find their conviction without compromise. In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen!